So this entry is something I've not used the web for for a long while, a spot to briefly open up about weakness in the hopes a few ears will hear and understand. Social media has masked the brilliance of the web for this by making moments like this much more of a cry for attention I think, a quick plea to the masses or perhaps that's a little cynical on my part but I'd say things like Facebook are not seeking comfort in an unknown and so somehow less judgmental mass as it is pushing the superiority of your own issue. Though I understand perhaps this is required from time to time. All this is however getting off track.
I'm struggling lately, with a bunch of issues embedded over most of my adult life but only really touch upon recently in an attempt to fix the problems they bring. My family has a bit of a history it seems in social phobia related psychological issues, mine are fairly minor, I can go about my day to day in a way that my sister cannot for example. That said I've spent a long time distancing myself from the general populace to keep what scares me equally at distance. I'm seeking to change this but it does make me at the moment significantly fragile to the insecurities linked to it all. It brings with it a low level mulling depression, the things I love feel so far away that to do them in some form feels kinda pointless, its listless and something I am sure many many on here and elsewhere will know all too well. I'm a stubborn soul though and keep opening the shutter and plucking at strings knowing I need to have some forward momentum.
What's the aim in saying all that....not a lot I guess. It'd be lovely if someone conversed on it but I don't overly expect that, it's not a connection I've found here yet. So in part it's just letting myself say it, to an anonymous mass who have no need to judge (I know, I'm counting out the trolls who wander YouTube just looking for things to put down, I'll assume you enlightened devarters don't fall into this category). However if this does strike a chord of understanding with you, if you struggle and would like in that some friendly attention to what your passion is then drop me a line and I'll give that attention to what you do, chat about your pieces and give them the attention the deserve.
More practical things now....tagging....it's one of my most hated parts of the upload process. I never really know what to put, whether I am missing useful words. Couldn't fall into old web ploys of putting false but popular search terms (herp, derp, boobies) but do wonder if there is something I am not doing quite to its potential. So a question....How do you tag??...if you have a minute drop me note with a link to a picture and let me know the tags you used....just curious really.
Thanks for reading folks, much love.